Another week

It's Saturday. Getting ready for bed, but wanted to leave a note before I called it a day, a week. I submitted my proposal yesterday. Hurray!!! Got the brakes and oil for my car changed. Headed to White Pine Beach today for a hike and some sun. Lovely day. A perfect day. A new design for my blog. :)

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It feels good to be back. Oh how I missed you. I've been at my parents' all week. We have family over so the house has been fuller than usual, louder than usual. It feels good to just have some peace and quiet for now. Car is at the shop, so I'm house-bound. That's okay. I have tons of stuff to do. Trying to process things back to zero. Also planning to have some play time. :) December Daily. That's it for now. Submitting my proposal next. :)

10 Things

Chances...
I've been listening to Five for Fighting's latest album Slice. The singer is one of my all-time faves. Chances Are is one of my faves from that album.

Watched Brothers and Sisters last night. Cried at the part where Sarah and Kitty are talking. Today I watched Dear John and cried at the part where John reads his letter to his dad while his dad is in the hospital. As I tend to be a tv bum when I'm at my parents, I watched The Prince of Tides as well after Dear John. Cried again. At the part where Savannah tells Tom she dedicated her newest book of poems to him, her brother. Putting things in perspective for me seeing my own bro here for a visit. It's so good to see him. Just like the old times. And I wish he would stay here and not have to go back. Also makes me wish things could go back to what it was before. Me back home. Jaja back home too. But I guess this is life. People grow up and move on.

Growing up......I turned 30 back in August. Unbelievable. Where did all the time go?

I saw him yesterday at work. He was the evening guy after me. Shocked when I saw his name on the schedule in the morning. We made small talk. Passed on need-to-know info. And then I walked away. Afterwards, I felt like I could have been more....engaging, more open, asked more questions. I didn't ask him a single question about his life. I think it was just a defense mechanism. The less I know, the better for me. Thoughts of him crept up on me this week. And to see him yesterday... I try to shake the thoughts away. Even if it didn't end then, it would have later. We never would have worked stuff out between us. It's just the way it is.

I just finished a rotation on Friday. I was with 2 other residents. Being with them made me acutely aware of how guarded and unsure I am. When asked a question, I never answer first. I always falter. I'm always unsure. I hate that about myself.

Went driving with Dan today. She just got her learner's. I was nervous and scared. So was she. I've never been in that seat. Again a reminder of people growing up...

Feeling inspired to start my December Daily. Will make time this week. This week is also deadline for the grant I'm applying for, so it's work-work-work for me. But hopefully I'll have some play time later this week.

Seriously considering getting a digital reader.

Currently reading Lost Women of the Bible.

Feeling thankful for family and friends.....