I remember:

...chocolate-covered strawberries

...walking in the rain without an umbrella

...having Baskin and Robbins,

and then realizing we had just enough fare money to get home

...FX and jeep rides

...chicken, shrooms, and chicken at TGIF

...poetry and prose

...Mulan and Shang

...angels

...being lifted and carried away in a museum

...a kiss at the gas station

...and tulips,

I remember tulips.

I didn't finish the previous post; I had to leave right away.

Anyway, last night I went to see Smitty in concert at Broadway Church with a friend. She was with a bunch of her friends so I got to meet them. I had a really good time at the concert. The opening band was called Down Here. I enjoyed their songs, and their Canadians to boot! I danced and sang at the concert, jumped up and down, worshipped, and cried. It was emotional for me. I had been feeling far away from Him for the past week. I didn't really know how to bridge the gap. I was ashamed, disappointed at myself, embarrassed at my weakness. But you know what, all roads lead to Him. I may fall and stumble a thousand times, but His grace will always be there. That's what's amazing. That's what's so incredible. That's what's humbling.

Tonight, I saw a dentist to look at the possibility of getting braces. Oh, which reminds me, I need to look up this appliance that she wants to use on me. I have never had a professional see me in that short amount of time. She probably spent, I don't know, all of 4 minutes with me, and then she left. It was like she couldn't wait to get out of there. She wouldn't even let me ask questions. I didn't feel very cared for as a patient. And to think I'm only a potential patient, how then does she treat real patients? Her CDA was really nice though, and spent time answering my questions. I would have liked the answers to have come from the dentist though. She's the one I'm paying. I wasn't very impressed at the care I received. I don't think I will see her.

Anyway, off to bed now. It's 10:30. I'm really trying to hard to be in bed by 11pm, and trying hard to not snooze so many times in the morning. Good luck to me.

It's Monday night, but it feels like Sunday to me. I had the weekend and today off. I'm just getting ready for bed. Thought I'd feed my employees on rc first before I call it a night. I had a very enjoyable day today. Went for a swim at the aquatic center. Boy, I was out of form. I kept getting out of breath. My legs cramped so often. I couldn't swim one length without stopping. I ended up getting myself some flippers. That was so much fun!

After swimming, I headed to the library and got some magazines. I read for a bit in the afternoon, then headed to the computer to work on a photo book. That was a frustrating story. See I made this photo book online for my aunt and uncle. It took me days to complete it. I spent hours and hours on it. When I was finally ready to have it printed, I was told that they had problems with their server and thus, lost the designs and photos that I had uploaded. What a bummer. So now I have to redo the whole photo book. So I did that for a couple of hours, but their site started going wonky, so I stopped. I hope it's just a one-off. I hope it doesn't mean I have to redo it all again. I would be really mad.

Just came home from another TM meeting. Cupcakes - success. Speech - success. Induction - success. I left the meeting with high spirits. Six months ago in October, I started attending a club for the sake of getting out of the house and meeting people. A way to get out of myself and my own mind. A way to distract myself from unwanted thoughts. Since then, I have started doing other things too. I started taking swimming lessons. I plan to continue swimming once a week. I have been nominated to take on the role of either secretary or sergeant-at-arms of the club. I am leaning towards the secretary position. It's comfortable. It's doable. The sergeant-at-arms role though, is a little bit uncomfortable. I sense some stretching happening there. I'm not sure how much time it would entail. Now that I'm starting the program in June, time is going to be a rare commodity. But then again, maybe that will force me to be more effective, and to use my time more wisely. Election is next week, so I need to give my answer by next week.

Excerpt from my speech tonight:

Nowadays when I swim, I no longer see the bandaids and hair ties that lie on the floor. Instead, I see the clarity of the blue water that envelopes me. Nowadays when I swim, I no longer hear the squeals of children or the yells of teens playing ball in the water. Instead, I hear quiet as I count in my head. Nowadays when I swim, I no longer feel the hustle and bustle of people splashing water all around me. Instead, I feel the solitude that being under water gives me.

I'm signing off now. Time to get ready for bed. See you soon.