It's Monday night.

Seriously, where does the time go? Before you know it, summer will be over already. I've been feeling behind, just trying to catch up with things. But I wonder, are these things really worth the effort, the stress, the worry? For example, weeding and ironing. My lawn doesn't look that bad really. There's just a couple of weeds that I want to pull out. I have been waiting for a block of time when I can do the whole lawn - front and back. But maybe I should just take 2 minutes to pull out the 2 big ones that are really bugging me. Done, decided. That's what I'll do tomorrow. Ironing. I have 5 shirts I need to iron. That's not a lot. I could probably wait another week. The thing is, those 5 shirts have been waiting to be ironed for more than a couple weeks now. Plus, I don't really own a lot of shirts that need to be ironed. Chances are, the 5 shirts that have been patiently waiting to be ironed are the only 5 shirts I own that need to be ironed! It's decided then. I will iron those 5 shirts tomorrow and get them off my back.

Feeling a little heavy hearted today. I got my aunt's bone scans and CT reports. They don't look good. She's supposed to come and visit us in a couple of weeks. But I don't know if her doctors will let her. Six months, that's what the doctors said. What can you do in six months? It seems so short. I think of the past 6 months. What did I accomplish? Not much really. Nothing stands out in terms of accomplishments. I learned lots though. I learned how important it is to have good relations with friends and family. They are the ones you'll fall back on after a break-up. I learned that no matter how much you want something to work, it takes two to tango. I learned that core differences cannot be ignored; they will always surface. I learned that there are 5 love languages, and that quality time is my love language. I learned that it's okay to be single. I learned that God is in the midst of all our pain, and that we can find comfort in Him. I learned that career was not my priority, when I always thought that it was. I learned that I crave something deeper, something more lasting than accomplishments and awards and letters to my name. I learned that I can mow the lawn by myself. :) I learned that I can be a source of encouragement for other people.

I can't remember shedding as much tears as I did than the past 6 months. So much hurt and pain. But God has used this time to show me Himself. For that, I am grateful.

I wanted to share a photo of me and sis #4 that's making me so happy before I sign off.