A new blog. A new start. This is the best I've felt in weeks. I feel at peace. Content. A certain belief that things will work out in time. Much to my surprise, I received an email from him when I least expected it. God knows I was expecting one some time last week. I guess it really is true: things come when you least expect them to and never when you expect them to. He thanked me for the card.
I am still contemplating replying to the e. Weighing my words. Preparing my heart + intellect. Flipping through my planner, I came across the page before July. I typically write ahead of things I plan to do before or some time at the start of a month. This is what I saw: a list. Typical of me. But it said: Things to do with RC: 1. Take personality test, 2. Costco, 3. Corn maze (in the fall), 4. carnival/amusement park, 5. travel -- road trip, 6. Read chapters together and discuss. It made me stop in my tracks. Another one of those. But at least they're getting less and less frequent. And I'm also able to get past them quicker as well. I'm definitely on the way to a better place. I have a certain date as a goalpost. I'm looking forward to that day.

Spending time up in Whistler does wonders to the soul. Or maybe it's just time away from the routine and the mundane. Drove up Thursday and came back Sunday. It was my first time to drive up to Whistler and I was surprised at how easy it was. It was also my first time to see Whistler not covered in snow. Great place to hold a conference. My sis C came with me and it was a pleasure to spend time with her and catch up on things. After the break-up, I relied heavily on family + friends to keep my mind occupied. After the break-up, I had so much more me time. And I'm realizing that it's great! I have time to scrapbook, read, blog, play online, pursue interests -- all things that I had put aside because of putting a certain someone in the center of my life. For fellow females out there, I highly recommend reading He's Just Not That Into You. Too often, we sell ourselves short and believe that we don't deserve any better. We deserve better. Don't settle for less.

Reading: A Perfect Mess, Without Blood, Revolutionary Road

Listening to: The Warrior is a Child by Twila Paris